My existential crisis is pointless

Just wondering about the point of all this – the bureaucratic paperwork, unraveling relationships, being reasonable and creating meaning out of  mundane repetition.
I think about train stations that smell like piss and an old man I once saw shopping for rosaries at the Salvation Army.
Yesterday I was content  making tiny pumpkin books and apple “brownies” and playing Mary, Mary, Quite [...]

Nails in my pocket and hammer close at hand

I’m  moving things around. Still. Boxes, books, photos… God I was young then. Almost shimmering with unfaltering love.
I could pile everything in the garage and start all over again. But there isn’t enough time. I have a pile of new library books, 2 calligraphy books making their way through the mail and So You Think [...]

Observation

You can’t reason with your brain when it enters worry mode in the middle of the night. It will go where it wants to. There is no stopping it. It will act out scenarios and present little dramatic plays which, though entertaining, are not relaxing. At 3:45 my brain turns into Quentin Tarantino.
I’ve given up [...]

Maybe I’m Just Tired

(My heavy head is full of debris  -As Tall As Lions)
Like my sick kitty, the wisdom teeth, the car mirror, locking the keys  in the car, getting my hand stuck in the shredding bin, and people who don’t help their kids.
(I know we’re all souls just trying to connect with someone – As Tall As [...]

ABC, NBC, CBS, NPR & Oprah. Please tell me what to do next!

This just in: You can save money by not eating at restaurants.
In  the media’s quest to make all stories relate to  a) the shitpot economy b) obesity or c) selfish ignorance, NPR has hit a grand slam (not the Denny’s kind) with this story on NOT eating out.
Don’t want to read the full article? Let me summarize for [...]

Mere coincidences or some master plan

Coincidence or Master Plan? My daughter goes to college in  Boca Raton. Once upon a time I worked for a big savings & loan in NJ as a manager of student loan originations.  We had offices in Florida with a big student loan division in Boca Raton. All their loans got sent to our offices [...]

In which I talk about my name and forget to name the post and have to edit it to add this name which is a really bad name

For 22 years I had a name.
And then one day I got married. I had broached the subject of keeping my maiden name and the idea was met with general hysterics and displeasure. So because it’s traditional for the wife to change her name and because I cave fairly easily, I took  my husband’s name.
I [...]

Magical, sparkling, snowflakes

One Christmas we couldn’t go to church because it was so cold the car wouldn’t start.
One Christmas I got a guinea pig. Sis had it hidden in her room and I had absolutely no idea even though my room was right next to hers.
One Christmas my cat Tess got very sick and I had to spend [...]

Sentence fragments

Like the pink building in Arcadia.
One cool day in the midst of a soul-sucking world.
Apples waiting to be peeled & pied.
Of Montreal who?
Turning off the air.
Dust everywhere.
Using political mail as placemats.
To live a quiet.
Lost causes.
Used to laugh with you.
Skill level.
Annoying batting stance and a lumberjack beard.
To be able to look out the window.
Miles from here in other [...]

For your convenience inconveniences me

This is a shopping list I found in my local Publix:
eggs, coffee, flu shot, prunes, cheezits…
This is what I read on a sign I saw at my local library:
FLU SHOT CLINIC Friday, October 10, 2008 10 am-2 pm
Yes in Florida there are ”flu shot clinics” in grocery stores, libraries,  churches, community centers and pharmacies. Maybe it’s like that [...]